December 14, 2007 at 11:45 pm · Filed under blogs, life, love, new, struggle and tagged: blogs, life, love, rant

So we were together today.  you were like status quo.  well as we know status quo does not work.  i just think there is some things that have not been said.  so here goes:

what do you want out of our relationship?

if you say you depend on me to much, what does that mean? you want me to stop offering you over for dinner? stop helping you at work?  what?

i am in love with the idea of you.  you could never commit to a lifestyle like mine…you need so much more personal space and i never could ask you to change. you are set in your ways. i get it.

i think we became comfortable with each other, doing things for each otther…what is so wrong with that? why can we not do things for each other?

who do you talk to?  have you talked to anyone about what is happening to us? i do nto think you have….i do not believe you care that much….

it hurt when you said you would walk away if it is what i thought was best that you cared enough about me to respect that about me…what the fuck!  walk away after you said you would never leave? they always leave…why do you think i have so many walls up? why do you think this hurts so much? i want my walls back up…

i just do not know what to do…i wonder if i could get more sleep it would help?

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