For Fuck Sake

May 22, 2009 at 2:13 am · Filed under Uncategorized and tagged: blogs, crying, depressed, hate, life, lonely, ramble, rant, searching, struggle, sucks

Okay so i am an internet junkie.  I have facebook, twitter, a blog, it seems as though everyone needs to know your business and we all feel compelled to tell everyone what we are doing.Sometimes it is a good thing, sometimes like right now it is not a good thing.

Yes people that know me do not know about this blog. so therefore i am free to say what ever the fuck i want!  Life sucks right now. i seem to only talk on this blogwhen i am completely stressed out. as i look back it is the only time i talk! iamnot always this down or anger or so on…but right now itsucks

works sucks. sure we have all been hit with budget cuts, i see it as at least i have a job. but i have people who work for me that SUCK.  pushing, demanding and lazy. some on the other hand are god sends! i would not be able to function without them.  thework keeps piling up. more and more to do. less and less money or support.

friends suck. i know we are all i nthe same boat. we all are having trouble. but we all seem to be sinking fast!  truth be told, i am ready to tie anchors around my ankles and let go.  you know i have been hanging on so tight lately i think it might be easier to let go!!!!!!!!!!

if there were only jobs out there. if there were and some that paid then you know what i would be out in a heart beat. i am looking but there is nothing and when i feel like an incompetent human it is notworkingout so well for me!

something has to give. or i am going to have to let go. because i am breaking. i yelled at my kids and really should nto have it was because i was stressed and totally can not keep it together.  i am hangning off the cliff.  i already jumped but it just seems like a branch keeps holding me back.

this sucks. it only can get better?? i dont have much hope right now.

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